Frustration

I've recently had a baby. Yes. I said a baby. It actually happened. It's better then I could have imagined. A baby girl. Addison is her name. I could go on and on about this little lady and how much meaning she gives to my life. But I won't. That's another post. Here's a picture though. 

The joy that smile brings to me! 

On to the topic of this post. I still worked out for the majority of my pregnancy. I think up to week 34 or 35. Mostly the elipical. Running stopped about week 25. I've recently started getting back into the groove. Running is going great. With the exception of one little problem. My vagina is broken. Or in simple terms I end up peeing my pants during my run. Today I even used the bathroom first. Also had a panty liner on. Granted it was one if the small thin ones. But it's frusterating I even have to use one. Yes, I didn't get a baby and wouldn't change it for the world. But....it makes me sad too. Running is apart of who I am. I don't want to give it up. I'm trying to do more kegels throughout the day. I just have a bad memory that seems to have come with having a baby. I even asked the Dr. about it. Turns out if kegels don't do the trick there is a procedure I can get. My only problem with that. I want more children. Atleast one. God allowing. So I don't want to get that done just to have to get it done again in a few years. Only other option, run at night when it's dark and nobody can see when I soil myself. 

Tough choice.